Well, I'm certainly not off to the start that I was hoping for! Monday was a write-off. I ended up having a child home sick from school and that threw everything into disarray. Yesterday started off well- I prepared healthy meals for myself and packed a very healthy lunch with no sweets, but it ended up not ending up quite as well as I thought.
I work shift work; I rotate two weeks days and two weeks afternoons. When I got home last night I was very hungry and instead of grabbing something healthy, I reached for the chips. Eating that late is not good for my body, so I was essentially not loving myself or my body.
Since this isn't about a diet, though, I am choosing not to look at this as a "failure" or "falling off of the wagon" like a dieter would. Instead, I'm looking at this as a reflection of what will be challenging for me throughout this journey, and I have the opportunity to find out what some of my challenges will be right from the very beginning. I am going to be hungry after work so I need to have some healthy snacks ready to go. I can't keep junk food in the house. And I need to count my successes as well. Yesterday I ate healthy for the majority of the day. It started off well. While I was eating my dinner of chicken breast and asparagus last night, I thought about how much I was enjoying it, and how it truly is fuel for my body instead of just junk.
Today has started off better. I have already taken my dog for a walk and walked the kids to school. I have a healthy lunch packed already and my husband and I have plans to go to the gym in a little bit. Another success? I bought a dress off of the Internet a while back. Since it was coming from a Chinese company it took two months to arrive. Learning from those before me I ordered it one size larger than I normally get, making it about my size. It arrived yesterday, I put it on, and instead of focusing on my body flaws as I usually would, I saw how beautiful my shape is. I'm overweight, yes, but I'm beautifully curvy too. I can't wait to feel this way more of the time.
Have a great day!